A BIG THANK YOU!!!

Assalamualaikum,

It's been a long time since I post something on my blog..Today I had opportunity to write something here.First of all, on 23.8.1991 I was born and today 23.8.2012 I'm still alive..I am veryy grateful to have a chance to live until now..I'm thankful enough to Allah and my parents..

I would like to say thank you to those who wished my birthday through facebook, IM, twitter and massage.Even though there is a birthday reminder on facebook but at least you guys have the guts to wished me..and for that I'm Thank You..

It's more than a year now since I keep a big secret that involved my life and death.I wanted to share with someone about this but I dont know who I can really reallyyy trust..and I don't know why i feel like sharing it with you guys so that you girls out there aware of this.

About one year a go I was diagnosed to have this one of a kind disease which they called it Pituitary Glands Tumor scientifically..This tumor that I carry along this one year is about 2cm which is big compare to others.This tumor that I carry is in between my brain.This tumor control my hormones and everything that involved women's health.At first I really have no idea that I have this tumor inside my head but then after more than 2 years after SPM I felt something different in me especially my health.and I thought it was nothing but its getting worse and worse and worse..but then I checked with the GP and she said something unusual to me.She asked me to go to specialist.So, I go.
I met this specialist doctor that she recommended.The specialist asked me to do MRI scan.It was my first time doing it and I felt really scared to do the test.For the first time I enter the MRI room alone without my mum and done the scanning through my brain..At that time I really felt that I had no one except for my parents.It was so scared.I remember every and each sound in that room.Though I wasn't in this world.Then, things that I've been waiting for is the result of MRI.And from that result I've been diagnosed to have this tumor.
The specialist told me and explain more details about the tumor but I just couldn't understand anything..I kept looking at my mum's face and I started to cry.I was scared and I have no idea what to do next.So, she explain..and explain..Then she prescribed me with one this drugs called Dostinex. She said that whenever I have to take the medicine, I have to eat something in between because that drugs can cause me to vomit.At first, she prescribed me on low dose but week after week..month by month the dose keep rising..and I cant stand it..whenever I take that drugs I felt high..I can't do anything.I can't study..I feel nauseas..uncomfortable..Then I stop taking the drugs because I had to study and I got exam..but then the tumor didn't shrink.So, after a year she though that I have to make another MRI test to see the progress..well, as I mention, it's was something that I'm not expected..the tumor didn't change in size at all.
So, I keep on taking the medication in high dose until now.but after more than one year I suffer this, last Ramadhan, I felt the changes..I started to feel normal again..now, its second month already I started to have my balance hormone again.but I hope it continue and the tumor will shrink..andd I dont have to eat those drugs anymore..I pray for that..the side effect of taking those drugs really tortured my body and brain.today I have one more shot before another appointment with the specialist..
So, I though if I shared this, girls out there will be aware of this.Don't take this for granted as this is important.maybe not now but when we start to have a marriage life.We don't know whats gonna happen next.I felt really regret for not making any medical checkup before because I though I'm healthy enough.but then I was diagnosed to have this tumor.This issue keep bothering me every single time when I'm alone.I shared this story is not because I want a sympathy but I felt like a weight on my shoulder keep rising.. For lessen my stress i want to share it to my little diary here.

On this 23rd August 2012, I want to thank to Allah for giving me chance to live until now even this tumor still inside my head..and i really want to thank my parents for being there through ups and downs while I struggle with this tumor.and thank you to my friend for being there to listen to what I have told you..You know who you are because you are the only one who knows about this tumor.I'm really grateful to whoever support me from behind.and a big THANK YOU for all..

p/s: pray for me to have my normal life as a women again.thank you! :)